It’s absolutely ridiculous how much I waste time. From waking up late to sitting and staring at the wall to playing when I should be working. I read the Rebelution blog today, for the first time in months and MAN I’ve never been more frustrated with myself.
I know God wants me ministering right now, I know there’s some ministry right out of my vision that is awesome and exciting but I can’t see it because I don’t take the two steps closer that it takes. I can’t be committed to God for more than a few days before something gets me off track again and it takes a week or longer to get back on track. God can’t do anything with me until I’m fully His. I know this, and I know its true more and more every day.
I don’t want to be fine with a normal day. I don’t want to do everyday things and go to bed content. I want to be looking for ministry opportunities, I want to stay up late talking to God, I want to wake up excited to do His work. I want that passion and that fire.
I want to live the life full of God, not the life full of living.
